hipo...

...potam. acikcasi hipo denince aklima ilk gelen sey, zamaninda antik misir'da diger her seyden fazla olume sebep olmus bu sevimli hayvan.

sevimli dedim de, esasen tanidigim tek hippopotam british museum'un meshur antikitelerinden olan su ustteki.

ama derdim o degil. zaten hippo antik yunanca'da at anlamina gelen ἵππος'dan; hipo ise 'asagisinda' diye cevirebilecegim ὑπό'dan geliyor. sikintim ise, bir japon'un (hakaru hashimoto) basimiza sardigi hipotiroidim. zaten dikkat ettim, ne zaman basima bir hastalik sarilsa, birilerinin kulaklari cinliyor (ya da mezarinda ters donuyor.) hatirlayacak olursak diger orneklerimiz de thomas hodgkin ve kendisinin adini verdigi tip lenfomada gorulen guzide hucrelere isimlerini veren dorothy reed ve carl sternberg isimli sahislardi. rahmetlileri zamaninda cok andim. simdi sira hakaru-san'da.

dorothy reed. like a boss.

reed-sternberg hucresi. carl sternberg'i kimse sallamamis ve internetlerde fotografi yok. yaziiik.

 





 

    hakaru-san. duydugu uzuntu yuzunden okunuyor.

bu noktada, isyanim su dilemma uzerinden: hipotiroidim var, bunun icin ilac almam gerekiyor ki eksik hormonu dengeleyeyim. fakat hipotiroid icin aldigim ilac gunde birkac kere hipertiroid ataklarina sebep oluyor. ilaci birakamiyorum cunku o zaman hipofiz bezim cok uzulurek, tiroid bezime "kaytarma!" mealli TSH yolluyor. zaten kendi haline birakilinca, kendi immun sistemim kendi tiroidime saldirdigi icin (iste boyle kendi icinde savas veren bir yapim var) bu opsiyon mumkun degil. butun bunlari duzeltmesi icin aldigim sentetik tiroid hormonu ise (yunanca "iyi" anlamina gelen eu- prefix'i kullanilarak sevimli bir havaya sokulmaya calisilmis euthyrox) hem daha bunyemi normal hormon seviyelerine ulastiramadi HEM DE ara ara overdrive'a gecip bana sanki hipertiroidmisim gibi semptomlar yasatiyor.


lutfen tip bilimi bunu cozsun. bugun cumartesi, yarin pazar, hadi pazartesi de 23 nisan, resmi tatil. ama sali gunu masamda istiyorum.

(cunku neredeyse pazar gunu geldi catti ama ben hala game of thrones'un ucuncu bolumunun tamamini izleyebilmis degilim. becauseofreasons.)

yazarimiz yillik izninin bir bolumunu kullandigindan

degil tabii. pazartesi aksami buyuk bir heves ve keyifle pizzami ismarlamis, game of thrones s02e03'un basina oturmusken, bahsi gecen iki kisilik pizzayi tek basima on dakikada tuketmemin de etkisiyle dizinin ortalarinda hipoglikemik soka girdim. dizi yarim kaldi, ben de pazartesi aksamindan beri hastanedeydim. game of thrones'u ise, 13.3" ekranda yarim yamalak izlemeye kiyamadigimdan eve donmeyi bekledim. ve iste (az once) donmustum. watch this space.

nostalji ama iyi manada

2009 yilinin 16 nisan'inda ABVD, yahut yuksek dozda toksik madde, a.k.a kemoterapi tedavim bitmis. epey eski bir yaziya gelen yoruma bakmaya gitmisken tesadufen gordum. bugunun 16 nisan 2012 olmasi dolayisiyla yurtta (evde) ve dis temsilciliklerde (babaya telefon ederek) kutlama planlari initiated.

mayis sonu-haziran basi gibi de radio ga-ga'dan kurtulusumun ucuncu yildonumu senliklerle kutlanabilir. mehter dusunuyorum (harbiye askeri muzede, pazartesi ve sali haric her gun, 15:00-16:00 arasi.)

Would you like some radiation?

So, the long awaited radiotherapy did start on Monday. I had a tomography before, for my doctor to plan stuff like seeing me in 3D (must have been very exciting) and deciding which areas are to be shot. Or radiated. On Monday I was also marked with a board marker. They put little adhesive tapes over the marks and told me it's okay to take a shower, only don't rub the area. Well, this is day 2, and one of them already came off. I will ask for the tattooing option. On the funnier side, I now have a huge cross on my upper chest, which is very visible. The cleaning lady at the gym asked me if I was a member of some cult. Really.

The radiation part doesn't feel like anything, pretty much like having your x-ray taken and the machine is really cool, reminds of the Space Odyssey. That said, radiotherapy is not the most innocent treatment around; the problems (mostly other cancers) show up years later. I'll think about that years later. Compared to chemotherapy, this one's like a day in the park.

All those said, I am rather hoping for some super hero(ine) powers. I wouldn't like to take all this radiation for nothing. I did consider taking a cat in with me, resulting, hopefully, in me turning to cat woman but the security is rather tight at the hospital. Maybe I'll still get some extraordinary trait. Or have green babies in the future.

Done with the chemotherapy

Now unto the unknown realms of radiotherapy, which is expected to start sometime by the end of April. Although the whole treatment is not over yet, I am grateful the chemo part is, as it was, to say the least, a bitch.

Impressions:

• Chemo sessions take really, really long. At least they did for me except one, and that one resulted in a blocked vein. We're talking about sitting in a chair for 4 hours receiving toxic chemicals through IV.
  
• The nausea. Really. The first few times I didn't even get it, but after the 6th session or so, the nausea was so bad I had to go for cortisone, which is a two sided blade.
  
• Mouth sores. They take about 3 to 7 days to go away and in the meantime one can enjoy wonderful meals in the guise of baby food mixed with protein powder. Mmm yummy. Having to actually do the rather complicated oral hygiene routine during this time is also a thrill.
• I am now a rather yellow-skinned individual. Doctors say the discoloration goes away after a while. Probably. In most people anyway.
  
• I always had problems with the veins on the arm I received the treatment, sometimes so bad that I almost overdosed on painkillers (and still the pain would not go away.) It's really hard to describe it, it's like rheumatoid pain multiplied by 10. I won't miss it.
• Fatigue. I remember days when going to the bathroom seemed like a hike through the mountains.
  
• Say goodbye to your veins: they get really hard and thin, you get multiple thromboses, and are impossible to find. As a result of this, getting a simple blood test sample takes 20 minutes, the nurses (yes, multiple) try to locate a vein that is not blocked or is soft and/or thick enough. They do say that working with weights is the only way to remedy this. I tried.
  

I had to take this for about 7 months, and finally (trumpets) the tests say I don't have any cancerous cells -at least not the size that is detectable by current scanning methods. But since they want to make sure, they will give me some good old radiation to the affected areas. I am now wondering if I will get any superhero powers. Or turn green.